It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted something new in this blog of mine. I was into self reflections as the rains pour down in every roof of the metro for over a week. That was the time I have realized so much about myself.
Over the past two months, I made it to a point to go to church every Sunday, not just because I have to, but to give back what is supposedly for God. Of course I go to church on Sundays, but this time, I went back to where I was first called by God and started things back from the start, and this time with my Wife… Truly, it’s so amazing how good things work in our lives if we only see upon ourselves who we are and what our purpose is to one another.
Another so importabt that I was into was restoring my daily devotions in a properly-arranged special part of the day. Back then, I do devotions, but only if I have enough time to spend for it, which later did I know was not in anyhow helping me see what I should receive. The difference is not on how devotions are being done and how often in one day you do it, but in how you want to take a part of the day and make it so special that it would affect others.
I’m up and about with my bible reading, everyday. But now putting more sense into it, not just because I have to, but to appreciate something that brings so much blessings in me. I don’t want to sound much about being old school, but it’s just the way things are.
Some say they don’t want to look like religious when it comes to Faith and God, but the wrong thing is Religion itself means relation, as referring to its original language’s meaning in English. Part of the matters that I realized was to never say or act something you don’t know. Part of it, I learned the hard way.
What started all of this? It’s all about misunderstanding. Misguided into something that I thought was real and blinded with things that I thought was true. Sometimes, the people you would trust the most are those who would cut you so deep that it kills you from the stoning thoughts of other people. I got confident in a fact that something wrong was not going to happen, but people sometimes are way too unexpected, that you’ll never know what they got under their minds. I got a bit careless with my image that I didn’t noticed it was being torn out to pieces behind me. Learning lesson such as this would certainly get anyone back into their senses. Accepting I was wrong to be way confident on something I never expected to happen was a big mistake I still seek forgiveness for.
Over the past months of beating up myself with such burden, God always have answers for everything and anything. The only thing we need to do is Ask. In times we get clouded with so many things that goes around us and miss out a very special sunshine that gives us light in our path.
Upon learning and always being reminded of the past and how God made it happen for me, it’s so clear for me to see that in anything, there is no such thing as hate and unforgiveness as long as you stand alongside God’s Love. And with acceptance and God’s forgiveness, and recognizing Him and His Love in my Life, there nothing that can ever stand in my way.
Two more months from now, our very first baby will be born and to God I owe everything. And my journey for our son’s name is completed. We shall name him Rain.
